My Body Is Getting BIgger
My subconscious mind still thinks I should be smaller, and I’m shocked by it. My thinking brain would NEVER, yet that young, insecure version of Teddey who desperately wants to fit in and be accepted still pops up sometimes. She still asks for approval, and frowns at herself in the mirror.
Is the size of your stomach a medical condition?
Maybe your body is wise and helpful and supportive, and shifts in your shape mean something other than that you are a gluttonous maniac who can’t stop eating.
Maybe the shape of your body -- and the size of my stomach -- isn’t a medical condition, but an emotional condition. An emotional COMFORT, even! A shelter, a sanctuary…
Will I Be Fat When I Die?
This notecard is tacked beside the desk of a petite elderly woman who has just moved into assisted living. This woman is brilliant, had an impressive career, and lived an independent, wealthy, enviable life. When I saw the “127 Pounds” beside lists of books she wanted to read and pictures of places she’d visited and lists of goals she had for herself, it broke my heart a little bit.
Why the Scale Will Always Derail You
If you are a die-hard scale devotee, I understand how important that ritual is to you right now. It helps you feel like you’re in control. You’re almost a little addicted to the drama of discovering today’s number. You can’t imagine going through a day without knowing the “truth” about what’s going on with your body. I completely get it, because I lived that way for years. The damage of weighing myself really crystallized for me one day about 8 years ago, and the impact was so dramatic that I haven’t been tempted to weigh myself since.
But I have to lose weight for my health!
There’s a lot of evidence that losing weight and keeping it off isn’t possible for most people -- you really need look no further than your own experience, most likely. And each attempt to lose weight messes with your metabolism and appetite over the long term -- it’s not a benign act. Let’s talk about why focusing on weight loss derails you from your actual goals.